In other spaces on Hive, and I believe in this community as well, I have mentioned that I am an anesthesiologist. I have been in love with this specialty since my fourth year of medical school. No, it wasn't because of the potential money I would earn as a specialist, because here in Cuba there isn't much difference in salary between specialties.
I fell in love with the specialty because of how complex it is, because of the amount of technical elements you need to know, and because while I was studying for my degree, I never thought they would be applied in medicine. It's not really that complex once you get used to the daily work and understand how everything works.
The hospital where I did my residency seemed wonderful to me at first. But as I got to know it better, I began to feel a growing sense of rejection towards it. There came a point when I was praying for a rotation to another hospital just to escape from there for a few months.
When I graduated as a specialist, I thought the tensions would disappear, but instead they have grown stronger. People don't help much, and except for two or three colleagues who deserve my respect and affection, the rest are part of a nest of vipers. I know it sounds ugly, but the fact is that I can't even trust them in purely work-related matters.
I would like to move to another workplace. I know that doesn't guarantee that things will be better, I even know that they could be worse. But I'm one of those people who think that when a situation has no solution, it's best to close the cycle and not sit around waiting for a miracle to happen.
The only thing I still like about where I work is the view. Being so close to the sea, at any time of year and in any weather, I can enjoy the landscape, especially when I feel most unhappy there.
Despite everything, I still love my job as an anesthesiologist. Amidst profound crises involving essential resources, I have become much more studious. The bond that was once threatened now has a knot that is much more difficult to break.
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English isn't my native language. Text translated with DeepL
