I keep disappearing whenever I feel like I'm shattering inside. Not even a single person can ever talk to me, because no one can handle my raging emotions when I'm at the edge of falling apart.
I keep disappearing and nobody knows how miserable I am during these times. It became a habit to me, to disappear every time I don't have the courage to face the world. And then I'll come back as if nothing happened. I come back as if I never cried alone in the dark.
I keep disappearing whenever I feel like I'm about to give-up. The more I feel tired, the quicker I disappear. It seems like it became my escape from everything, and sometimes, I just don't want to come back anymore.
I just want to disappear and never come back again.
They say I am too sensitive. I feel too deeply. I care too much. I get it. It’s not always healthy. But I feel connected to everything, all the time. Someone hurts and I hurt. They fall and my knees shake. They weep and I am there. I can’t help it. And I am learning to be okay with it. To let the whole world in. I think it makes me more human and not less. I am okay if you are not okay with it. I will feel that, too. I will still feel.
Be bless,
