Facing my fear sometimes feels like a huge mountain to bring down since I know either ways the outcome is, I have to face the consequences of my decision as the basis of life with no doubts.
At times, it doesn't have to be about being courageous enough to take the decision of facing the fear but the aftermath of the decision delays the right step to be taken so the fear is never just about facing the fear but about what comes up after the decision.
I had always thought a previous decision I made concerning a relationship will be the greatest fear I would face in my life until I was employed by an emotional vampire and morale crusher who creates a burnout factory of a workplace. I knew I had entered into a hell the very first month I entered but the fear of not getting a better place or even another job on time and being financially handicapped made me stay of which I couldn't get truly and in a blink of an eye, I had used 3 years and I was not the way I used to be anymore.
I had the work experience but working experience tampered with me emotionally and at some point I thought I had lost myself totally when I became the same person imploring others who wanted to leave to at least get another job before leaving. I guess his whole everyday threat had gone into my head that "thousands of unemployed people are out there looking for ways to be employed" so I overstayed my welcome before realizing the worth of my delayed decision.
When the point of dancing to the tune came, It didn't end at just leaving alone but the fact that I decided not to beg for my job back made him act crazy and based on the fact that I was the remaining old staff left. I was at the edge of losing my dignity as he was bent on fulfilling his threat to show me the stuff he was made of. His first act got me laughing at first when he threatened another staff member who knows my apartment to give him my apartment address or else he sacks her. I was ready to see his next action if he's denied access to the estate and indeed his next action was overboard which got me laughing more but at the same time having the fear of facing a rich influential man when I have nothing to fight him with.
He went to report at the station to file false cases against me and that's the more reason why I do tell people that whatever you do in life either you're been supervised or not, either you feel you will be accountable, caught or not, be transparent and be honest in all you do. This act saved me and gave me the courage to fight for myself as I stood up to this man even after he had his way to the so-called lawyer that was to fight my case and even with that, I still stood against them all to fight for myself with the support of my family and one single friend who stood strongly by me throughout.
The more reason why I also do say that some friends are in your life like a family even when they are not blood related to you and this is just the definition of this friend I have never seen in person but stood and encouraged my courage when I almost lost in, fought with me and held my hand till the end.
It wasn't really an easy fight through dragging ourselves on the internet and being chased out of the station premises, lol but my courage and the gift of my family and friend made me scale through and even with the money and influence of the so-called emotional vampire and morale crusher toxic boss, I collected an extra month salary from him and left for good.
Although, I might still be facing the aftermath of my decision which has been my fear that I was avoiding before that made me stayed that long but I can boldly say that I prefer going hungry for now than still staying to have that job. The unemployment is just a phase which will pass by no matter how long it may seem to be but I am here happy and never regretted that I made that decision to finally face my fears.
Some things are not meant to be endured or persevere for. It's just better to let go and move on.
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