When did we normalize this immense pressure on ourselves. The hustle culture is getting to us and we don't even see how toxic it is. Things like ten things to do to become successful, if you are not successful in this day and age you are wasting your time, if by 20 you don't have an empire what are you even doing, is not uncommon to hear. On the Internet, videos like this are innumerable and this is putting immense pressure on the youth.
I was this close to crashing out and having an existential crisis. I had to remind myself that I'm still young, I'm still learning. The hustle culture made it seem like I wasn't doing enough and I'm running out of time. And for guys the pressure is way worse. They are meant to be providers so it's like they have to figure out their lives way early. So many guys are juggling so many things at the same time not to look as if their not trying.
What baffles me is how we've made it look okay, the constant exhaustion that's just draining, the wearing burnout like a badge of honor. I'm just a girl, I can't continue pretending like I'm not tired; tired of measuring my worth by my grind, tired of feeling guilty for resting. Because at the end of the day, I'm human too and I'm capable of breakdown. I know how many times I just wanted to stop and take a deep breath and slow thing down.
No one tells you that the chase can hollow you out.
I’ve had moments where I hit goals I once prayed for, and instead of joy, I felt… pressure. Because now I had to maintain it. Multiply it. Outdo it. The hustle never says, “Well done.” It says, “What’s next?”. The crazy thing is even if you hit that goal that you once prayed for, now you got to work to keep it or to maintain it. It's never well done, it's what's next.
It's good to stay motivated and I still believe in working hard. I still want to build things that matter. But I don’t want my entire identity wrapped around output. I don’t want to look back at 40 and realize I was too busy chasing status to experience my own life. I want to breath, to rest without feeling guilt, to do things and not all think of a way to monetize it. We talk about grinding 24/7 and not resting as we've seen rest as a sign of weakness. While it looks like we are building our lives maybe we have just built a prettier prison, restricting ourselves from happiness.
It's Still Abeegail ✨ 💗
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