Do you not see what's wrong? This is by far the most sick post I've ever read on Hive. If you have trauma, do something about it. Beating the shit out of school kids would not sooth old pain. Burning people on streets (do you get it? Burning people on streets!) is worse than in the Middle Ages.
However, do the hell something with yourself.
RE: It Becomes A lifestyle: How The Trauma Of 20 Years Ago Affects My Lifestyle