Merry Christmas will soon be the song of the day, and happy new year will be the chore master to crown everything. Brings back memories yaknow
Well, irrespective of the fact that I don't have a plan to celebrate this year Christmas, I will still have fun though and learn while at it.
Every day, we grow and mature through experience from within our environment.
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This growth is one integral part of us that plays a very vital role towards how we accommodate other people in our lives as well as boost our skills towards making important decisions in life.
Just like we grow and develop everyday, our monthly and yearly growth is very much palpable as we we have learn a lot throughout the given time frame.
I am no different as I grow every day from lessons learnt and other things.
I would say, the character i exhibited last year December and now are very much different as I have gotten more lessons from life than I had previously. I am not surprised with my change of attitude though but I know that I will still change more until I reach the perfect attitude for me.
WHAT'S THIS CHANGE? YOU MAY ASK
Well, I used to be a socially bright type who glows and flows with everyone irrespective of anything.
I was not an extrovert but I am always lively with others, trying to make others fit in my life and accommodate every single person there is.
I give, even though I don't have, I choose to borrow and give those in need. That was how I was.
THE CHANGE
I was surrounded by people who are green snakes under green bushes. I didn't actually know this and I continued with all I was doing. Going out of my comfort zone to make others comfortable.
It changed when I began to saw that the people I am helping became the ones looking for my down fall. They were planning remove me from my apartment for reasons unknown. Except this, I have noticed things they did but I just gave deaf ears to everything because I wanted to maintain my friendship irrespective of the fact that I knew it was a parasitic one, with me being at the losing end. When I saw that they were trying to make me homeless, I became annoyed and sad because these are the people I'm trying to help, out food on heir tables, gift them things, and even give them financial support if I have. When I realized their intensions, I just backed off and stopped doing the things I was doing for them. When I stopped, they became angry because they now feel entitled to it but I did not pay mind to their anger and I acted nonchalant towards it.
After this incident, I became cold. I still love and do charity, but only to those who really worth and need it.
Ever since, I have had many other experiences with people that made me subconsciously detest people gradually, leading me to be a very cold person. I still flow with people though but the people I flow with are not up to a handful.
WHAT DOES THIS CHANGE MEAN TO ME?
It means a lot and I am really happy to be as cold as I am.
Currently, it seems like the older I grow, the colder I get and I am comfortable being alone.
I wouldn't want to change this person I have grown into because, now, with the experiences I have, I could see through parasitism.
Being cold also, has helped me in many situations by keeping me calm when I'm passing through any storm. It also makes people behave themselves around me.
I love who I changed into and wouldn't want to go back to the way I was.
That will be a for this post and I am really happy that you came around.
Thank you a lot and I hope to see you in the next post.
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