Horses or unicorns? I like unicorns better.
I think the last time I made a wish was two years ago. The wish wasn't for myself but for someone I cared about. That one wish, the most important one, which didn't get granted. Before then, I was more of a practical person, maybe a little realist. I look at the negative sides of a situation long and hard. Some people misinterpret it as pessimism. They might be right.
I love how Ladies of Hive brought the topic this week. Grant yourself this wish. It makes me focus on things I know I can change or achieve. It makes me want to try harder. Now let's get to it.
Wish 1: To be kinder
You see, kindness is what I've struggled with most of my life. I have no idea how to show it. Providing a person's basic needs or being there for them is far from it. At least for me. I do those things, but there are the littlest of things that put a smile on a person's face. I want to be more present. Someone that makes people genuinely happy. My practicality won't let me. So yeah, I wish to be kinder and I'm already taking that step. This year has shown me that I can. It has also thought me that you can't share kindness if you aren't happy. Almost there.
Wish 2: To live more for myself
I'm not sure if this should be considered a wish. I think it kind of contradicts my first wish. Or maybe not. When you live for yourself, you do what makes you happy. So yes, you can share all that kindness when you are happy. I spent most of my life looking after people I love and worrying what others think of me. It took ma a long time to realise that I can't be everyone's therapist and people will sure disappoint. So, I want to do me now. Does that sound selfish? I hope so. I need some dose of selfish in my life. Contradicting myself again, I know.
Wish 3: I wish I could draw
This is totally unrelated to my first two wishes. If there's anything I love that isn't writing, it's art. I badly wish I could draw. Art is the most beautiful thing. Bringing lines and colours into life. Someone once aked if I had tried drawing and was shocked when I said no. According to him, if I love art this much, why haven't I tried it? We'll, I'm sure my biology drawings are ashamed of me. Let's leave it at that.
There, you have my wishes. @djoi, come tell me yours.
