Hello everyone,
How are you all doing, I hope you are all doing great because I'm doing just fine here myself but a little sick, it's not much though. Talking about first love, to me it's like a disease and once you contact it, it's hard to get over because it is the first experience into the love world.
Thinking about my first love bring back a lots of memories mixed with both passion, joy and heartbreak but the, there was lesson learned which brought about growth. My first love is one of my special experience that taught a lot of things about life. It was a time filled with excitement because of the sweetness in getting to know that someone truly care for me and a time filled with nervousness because I never know what lies ahead.
First was like a disease that is hard to get over. I always feel butterfly in my stomach whenever I see him or hear his voice. Everytime we met, we will talk about everything, anything and nothing but anytime I remember our time together, I always laughed because it was funny, we were both immature or let me say I was so immature then. I didn't know what love is then and always follow the lead.
I don't want to be a teenage mom so I always keep my distance and then the only thing I can offer was comfort and hug, there was nothing intimacy between us because I was a scared and I think that always turned him off because he always wants more than that but I can't offer him what he wants and I think that is the beginning of our ending.
There was always a mixture of nervousness and desire you know as a human, but we always approached it with care and respect for each other or should I say I always approached it with respect because guys are so stubborn when it come to this things. It was a new and beautiful experience that brought us even closer together but in the end we later fall apart.
But the thing that really stood out from my first love was the emotional connection, our late night talk that is not even meaningful but just to keep each other awake, the shared dreams and aspirations that created a bond that felt like unbreakable between us but in the end it all just an imagination. But even though it doesn't last forever, the love and lesson I learned from that experience still stay with me.
Not all love story have a happy ending and my first love was like that. My first love was like a time of learning for me, that feeling of being in love can be overwhelming, it consume one's thought and emotion. Then I discovered more of a thing I need in a partner and it has effect on my other relationship. But I will say my first love is a stupid love, the heartbreak was one of it and crying over a guy is the most stupid thing to me now that I think about it. That is just that about my first love that end in 💘💘💔💔.
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