Your story is really touching. One of my nieces is currently going through a difficult period following a brutal break-up with her boyfriend. The situation is more complex than it seems, but what's certain is that she's going through a difficult emotional phase, with little support around her, which makes things even harder.
I'm glad to hear that Joy has come back to you. It's amazing how love can push us to do extraordinary things.
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