Hello Randi, the intrusive thoughts are damn tiring, stressful. I know what it feels like: an episode of compulsive swallowing several years ago was a very difficult period. I hope someday you would be able to put all these behind you--become OCD free.
Between, be active, follow other users' accounts, and post your new videos. Some people here would find your content helpful.
RE: Why Is It Hard to Talk about OCD