#tangledthoughts

No visible wounds so I need no suture.. What I try to do now is to write my own future. Never give up or cave in.. I am trying to change what has been. I am often bright and clever.. Not sure how long

I am tired of this circus, be strong for what purpose? Tired of the charade, all I want is to fade away. Red nose like a clown, I feel like I'm from out of town. I feel like a lost soul, that was far away

I'm turning thirty-five, I'm still on Hive, trying to survive and thrive. Four years since I signed up, Steem was still a pup. Justin, Ned and other assholes I have met, people I still trying to forget.

Taking hits and being lied to.. What the fuck is wrong with you..? People are shallow and narrow.. But I'm still a straight arrow. I let you walk all over me.. Not because I can't flee.. Because I'm like

So many things to say and do.. So little time to pray and pursue. Trying to hold on and follow through.. Everywhere I look, the same view.. Trying to get out of the glue.. I don't have time to review.

Feeling weak and dizzy like a never-ending hangover.. I'm getting out of control, it's like a hostile takeover. Not sure where to start or when to stop, feels like life is over.. I never stood a chance

The situation is not stable, I wish I was able, to turn things around like a foldable table. This is real, this is not a fable, I hate the label. I'm not unstable, I'm just unable... I wish I could reboot

A lot of people lack empathy, a "real" friend can turn into an enemy. I gave my time, my love, my heart and my energy.. You know how much you meant to me, I guess it wasn't meant to be. I hope

Rules of engagement. I will use force to defend myself if I'm under attack.. Even when things are pitch black and I've lost track.. I will always try to find my way back. How long I will last is unknown..

On my knees and feeling weak, too tough to speak. Pain inside and abrasion, an unwanted invasion. Memories of being healthy and well, tired of this living hell. I have seen friends leaving earth, they

I'm no detective, but I follow my Basic Instinct.. I search for clues while you try to make them extinct. In a mysterious way we are connected. We are linked. I'm seduced by your charm. Emotions and thoughts

You've come far, but now you're back in your car. You're driving away because you can't stay. You see the intoxication as your salvation.. You believe you're at the final destination. I want you to open

I never got a manual at birth, never knew how my life would be on earth. I had to make mistakes, I learned the hard way when things breaks. I walked my own path, that was my decision.. I will never regret

Take a leap of faith, I promise that I will treat you good. I told you that I always would. Take the step over the threshold, I will be there.. I am here to stay, I swear. I will help you to stop the bleeding.

You told me that is was you and me. You were the one who had the key.. The key to my chest and heart, you knew it from the start. We were beautiful and great, it was art. I did my part. I thought our knots

Asking myself what I keep writing for, keep making mistakes but I don't need more. I don't need liquor so I won't pour. Anxiety inside of me I just wanna roar. Tired of dreaming, tired of screaming and

All these words I say or write, doesn't mean that my future is bright. However, it might, mean that I will endure another day and night. With or without armor I will continue to fight, for things I believe

Depression, a single word that we throw around easily. It's insidious and building up over time. It's not peacefully. Don't use it to describe a bad day. Depression is more about life being gray. It's

I am smart, and it's great that I help people, but it will never fill the hole in my heart. The solution for that seems to be a million miles away, but I am currently on the right way. Make peace with

I have a sleeping disorder, but can't be awake because everything is out of order. Impossible to turn off my thoughts or my brain, can't relax for a second, starting to feel insane. Walking around, watching