I must venture to the Dr's office tomorrow, something I wish I didn't have to do, but as they said when they called: "We can't do all your appointments over the phone."

They are wanting to schedule my c-section already and I think it is too soon. Tomorrow, I will hear their reasoning, and present them with mine.

Because I am venturing out of my home, I let myself read the news, I saw THREE positive reports, and stopped at there. I also read only LOCAL news. I didn't let myself worry about LA, the Bay Area, Riverside County, New York, Italy or Spain.

• San Diego is being affected by coronavirus but at the same time flattening the curve.
• Children's Hospitals are seeing less cases or respiratory problems and have even shut down an ICY
• The overall numbers of FLU victims is down.

I believe that NOT reading the news is part of what keeping me sane.

Also, I have to keep my head on extra strong as I keep getting calls from the Dr's office updating me on my medical appointments.

C-section or "normal" delivery, as of now, there will be NO VISITORS OR PARTNERS PRESENT at the time of birth. They keep calling to tell me that. I get it. Leave me alone now!

This scares me a little, not because I will be lonely, but because if something goes wrong, who will be there to welcome my child with love and care?

Which is why everything will just have to go right. And all my mental strength is staying there. I don't have the luxury of worrying about others. I am sheltering in place, and taking great care of my children, leaving only for food (very rarely) and Dr. Appointments, that is all I can give at the moment. I do let myself visit my parents, but they are also taking care of themselves, so that is good.

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For a few days I did let myself read the news, and it was very upsetting. What did being upset do for the negative situations around the world? Nothing. What did getting upset do for me on a personal level? Nothing. So I stopped.

I did get a letter from the Elementary Schools being closed for the rest of the year, and

I am betting that there will be a baby boom in the next 9-10 months.

That should be super cool.

What about you? Do you have any predictions of how things will change?