Hello, warriors!
Since steemit has become my open-book diary, allow me to somewhat "share" you my feeling of anxiety. I do not mean to make you feel sad tho, but you know, sometimes we only need people who listens. Even just for a moment, even just for today, I have expressed myself.
I'm feeling so depressed today. So scared. And so worried. My heart is too heavy that I had to write it down here to lessen the pain. I'm not sorry for wasting your time in reading this but I just need this now, otherwise I'll explode. I may sound selfish and overrated but it's true.
I'm too tired of being strong.
I'm too tired of pretending to be okay.
I'm too tired of being scared to face the truth.
I'm too tired of holding back my tears.
I'm just too tired of EVERYTHING!
I just want to run and never come back. Or sleep and never wake up.
But just everytime I am about to escape and give up, a picture of my family pops up in my head.
"No, Zy. You can't leave them just like that."
Giving up is a choice. And I choose not to give up on them. Not today. Not now.
Ironically, my FAMILY will always be my weakness and at the same time my source of strength.
If you are feeling down, turn to God. You can always turn to Him. It's ok to cry. It's ok to feel weak. He is waiting for you. He is calling you, like a Father. Seek His will. Ask for His wisdom that you may understand his plans. It will never be easy, but trust Him. His ways are better than yours!
Apparently, this what keeps me going:
To God be all the glory!!!
You might want to read my previous post:
DEADLIEST SUPER TYPHOON IN ASIA
See you on my next post! 😇