I'm very sorry for your loss. Accept my condolences. Damn, that must've been tough though, to hear such a terrible news like that.

Anyway, I'm not entirely sure if this:

It took me years to realize that the best thing to have happened to me was the death of my father, his death brought laughter to me and still does.

Was the proper way to word your lucidity. I mean for one, take this statement out of context of your post, and you sound like a freaking psychopath! Heck, even within context of the post!

LoL, but I think I understand what you mean. You're laughing at the fact of what you could've become(frat girl most probably) if your dad was still alive.