Before I even say anything, it will please you to know that this is a community, a workplace of about 34,000+ members, including the coordinator, mentors, and students.

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We've always had video conferencing or zoom meetings. It wasn't my first time, I have attended more meetings than I could number or count. So yes, I am experienced, and couldn't risk making such a mistake.
Every time I joined a particular meeting, I am always careful enough not to mess up, like staying in a noisy and distracting environment. I am careful about my background not being distracting too. I am careful about keeping both my audio mic and video off not until I was called upon to speak or I had something to say. Most times there isn't really a need to use the video so it's always turned off and each time I join the meeting, I am conscious to turn everything off since it's always on automatically when you join a meeting, both zoom meeting and google meet.

The truth is that most times, I only just join a particular meeting and end up not paying attention because I do multi-task just so I could be seen in attendance or just be present to listen to what the mentors and coordinator are saying while doing other things, I will join the meeting, put the volume on loudspeaker, thereby listening to them speak and still doing other tasks in between.
This has been happening in most of the meetings I attended and I was already used to multitasking while being present in a zoom meeting.
I did it with no apology since it saved me some time too and not just settle in one place to listen and not do other things.

Save Me The Shame

As usual, we had a meeting one faithful day, I had prepared to join the meeting on time but because I was running late for other things I needed to do, I couldn't help but multi-task again. But this time, I had to get ready and dress up to go out. So like usual, I joined the meeting with the link that was provided.
Somehow I didn't know how I turned my video camera on, and my room was already seen by everyone present in the meeting. My problem wasn't my room being seen as my room was neat but the huge problem is that I was almost half naked🥺😭😢 yes I was with a wrapper tied underneath my armpit😂😭 with a shower cap on my head, how shameful 🥺💔 and this is to tell you I was preparing to have a bath to go out when I looked into my screen, I realized I was seeing myself. That's when my heart cut and I immediately hid myself from the video and struggled to turn off the camera but since I was already panicking, I couldn't do that properly so when the coordinator noticed the sudden disturbing sight, he had to turn the video off by himself.
Others notice too and asked what was happening and he mentioned he was trying to turn off a video that just popped up.

Gosh! I was so ashamed and felt embarrassed 😂🥺 I had prayed that no one mentions it after when the meeting was over, but that was such an impossible wish cause one of my troublesome friends from the workspace later came to our students/team group to mention seeing my room and me in the video during the meeting. I acted surprised like I didn't know what he was saying but deep down I was praying he doesn't keep on saying something about it so that others wouldn't join or make others that didn't see it or notice as well have an idea about it.

I can never say this was funny at all cause it was one of my most embarrassing days since the beginning of this year. And since that day, I was very careful never to look at my screen if I wasn't sure my video camera was turned off. Instead, I will place my screen upward facing the ceiling until I was certain that my camera was turned off before I pick up my phone to continue in the meeting lol.

Actually, before now, I used to be shy of the camera, not taking photographs but making videos so I know how it feels not to be your best or look your best in a particular video, and to me that day, I looked my worst and I was so embarrassed 😂💔
I prayed it would never have to repeat itself and I can say that until this day, such has never repeated itself ever again and I was conscious and careful not to have let it.

If I had to make one wish, it would be to change that embarrassing incident lol, this is how awful I thought that mistake was but to some it may not have really been a big deal, but it was everything to me lol.
If you have ever done anything embarrassing in your life, you would understand how I felt.
All the same, I use this medium and opportunity to wish you all a blessed week and a new day!

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              22 August 2022
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