The thing is niha, like many other opinionated anbiverts in here, i can say to you words, advices that maybe somewhat comforting, keeping in mind the situation you described above. But its your life. And youll get to live it only once. So live!!

Ive always faced these moments in my life that have caused me immense pain along with grave existential crisis. You know, those crisises where you would think it would be better to just take a blade to your wrist and then lights out. To cope with such situations and find peace, ive always looked up towards those whom i deemed to be wise. But their words seemed fake, empty and never helped me that much..Even my parents were having difficulties with finding the right words to say to me. But at the end the only thing that was there for me is myself..

So, search deep within and find that one thing that attracts you the most. It can be anything, anything that comes to your imagination . If you cant find it, then look even deeper. And then turn that into your lifes goal and legacy. Remember this, if you start doing something that doesnt come naturally and makes you unhappy, youll always find others to be disappointed or disheartened in you. but, no one except god and you yourself will be there at the end. So make the most of it while you can.