I have only seen such things happening in movies, I didn't know it would happen to me as well " Is this my reality" or I'm dreaming, can someone please wake me up from this slumber?
"Ooh my baby your dad and I had been meaning to tell you this for a long time"
"Then why didn't you tell me, why were you holding back"
"We thought you weren't old enough"
"Old enough, what does age have to do with this"
Finding out that my real parents that I have known all my life, are not my biological parents "How could it be possible" How come I did not know about it till now, why on earth would my parents keep such a thing from me, for this long? These are questions I would ask my real but not biological parents.
It's gonna be very hard to process such information, I'm likely to feel my hands trembling because of the love they showed while knowing fully well I'm not theirs, the people who quenched my every need even when it isn't convenient for them, the people who allow me to take part in the decision-making process of the family.
Why on earth, didn't they discriminate me when I'm not theirs at least that was supposed to give me a clue from the beginning but look after me as their own, sometimes I even get the best treatment in the family and my other siblings would get pretty jealous, all those amazing memories kept flashing back into my head, and the questions kept coming "how was I even adopted?" Or my parents are just trying to pull my legs? Even if they are "This is too expensive to be joked with".
I don't know how to classify this particular news "Is it good or bad" I feel like it's both, I'm gonna start with the bad.
It is bad news because I get to realize that I've been living with a lie my whole life, and then the good news is that I get to know the truth, how it affects me later doesn't matter "Well, it does" because it solely depends on me.
My Next Move: Because of the love we shared while growing up and up till this moment, I haven't experienced any form of less love from my parents and siblings "The love was always equal" It felt like unconditional love, and I don't think I'm gonna move out of the house but what I'm gonna do is to look for my biological parents if they are still alive or not. If I find out they are alive, I'm gonna know their reason for giving me up for adoption "Why didn't they want me?".
Going back to my biological parents is solely dependent on their reason for giving me up for adoption, if the reason is solid enough, I think I'm gonna double my life and make it equal by not fully leaving my real parents and moving in with my biological parents, what I think I will do, is to live at both sides because I can't fully leave the life I've known all these years behind and start all over from scratch elsewhere. I'll get to know my biological parents and see how they will treat me if the treatment isn't normal like when I was with my real parents "I'm gonna move out with immediate effect" cause I can't stand maltreatment in any way.
In conclusion: I don't like it when children accidentally find out about their adoption, I feel like adoption stories should shared early and talked about constantly in the family "Imagine me finding out about my adoption at this stage of my life" it isn't right, I don't think there is anything shameful or embarrassing about sharing one's adoption, I know often it can be difficult but then it's the truth that can't be changed.
Children have every right to know about their adoption story at a very early age.
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