Yesterday was just a fine day for us. My son was active and alive and I didn't know that he will got sick today. Last night I have a feeling that hes not okay as he always want me to hug him and said Mama gusto ko ikaw(Mama I want you).
Hello lovely Hivers and motherhood community 🌸. Today is not a good day to me as my son is sick. I am worried about his fever because there's a lot of dengue cases here in our area.
As a mother , we all wanted what's the best of our children. If they are happy we are more happy. When our children got hurts , we hurt more. If we saw them in pain we always wish have all the pains that they felt. It's okay if we parents hurt as long as our children will not get hurt and pained.
Everytime my son is sick I always blame myself for that as I feel like I have a lot of shortcomings on taking good care of my son. I have a lot of things in my place. I am experiencing anxiety these days and I admit that sometimes I can no longer focus on my son. It's really hurts me seeing him in pain and wish to have his pain.
Last June he also got sick because of high infection in blood and the doctor prescribe an antibacterial and vitamins but sometimes I always forgot his vitamins because of lot of thoughts in my mind. He is also a picky eater and I know it's a huge impact why he always got sick. I am really guilty with this thing.
Earlier he has a fever with a temperature of 37.6. We prayed together after he drinks the medicine. We prayed to God to heal him. As much as I want to be optimistic and claim that he will be fine soon there's also an inner thoughts thinking about what ifs.
What's if he has a dengue?
What if he has a blood infection again.
I am not in relief until he gets well. As of this moment I am not in a mood to eat and even take a shower as I want to see him from time to time. As if this moment he is sleeping peacefully already but I am checking his temperature every other minutes. I will be having a sleepless night again but that's okay because it's for my son.
Please pray for my son's fast recovery and I hope this is not a dengue or something.
Mommy Yen 🌸
