Hey! Let's chat a bit , I just wanted to share with you the projects that didn't go so well this week. Yeah, those ones I put effort into, but they just no and why . This is kinda weird. Have you ever felt like you're stuck with your hands tied, unable to move forward? Well, literally, we're two weeks into the new year. The first week was exhausting, but even though there's still some of that lingering, life goes on, and we must too. This past week has been the cherry on top hmmmm power outages are back. Today it failed four times , went out for several minutes and hours, but the ups and downs in the power are the real champions, the most consistent. Quite an odyssey to make this post.🤔🤔
Anyway, getting back, there have been times in the past where I didn't know what to draw or maybe didn't feel inspired to do anything, but these days have been different. I mentioned in the previous post that I've been working on several things during the week, and I'll show you some of it. Out of all those pieces, only one saw the light finally, and it wasn't easy to make. Maybe at another time, it would have been normal or easier, but oh well.
I think there was a breakdown to make them. A pill of stress, memories from the past, tiredness, some anxiety, a few hours of sleep andddddd an additional sleep paralysis. In fact, I didn't sleep much this week, dreams get .... Complicated. Although sleep paralysis doesn't do anything too severe, well, I haven't consulted a professional, but having few hours of sleep and waking up feeling like you're suffocating - the suffering and helplessness during that time feel kinda bad.
I had several options for making these pieces. I wrote the description of each one and what I wanted to achieve in each of these attempts. The girl in the bathtub was the trigger for everything; I wanted to make something dark but also add something unsettling in the scene, like the girl. I tried to get somewhere for several hours, but there was something that didn't quite click for me.
I've been thinking a lot about art styles lately, and even though I spent hours trying to finish it, I put it aside to try something else. Then came the bears (that's not good in crypto). I was clinging to continuing with the same theme, although I started from scratch with the girl and other elements. I made several changes to the structure of what I had before; I liked this one more than the previous, and it was more advanced. I couldn't find how to finish it.
I wanted to do something to commemorate my sister; there's a constant reminder of it, and a void I wanted to represent in one of these, but I didn't feel well to finish them – in fact, none of the pieces. I couldn't find a way for what I was trying to fit together.
I had to step away and leave it all for a few hours because I didn't know what to do, and the pill that collapsed me was bothering me. It only hurt my hand, and I wasn't getting anywhere.
After calming my mind a bit and clearing it up, an agreement of what I wanted to do came. I dedicated myself to making the piece "Fatum," which is about the paths and games of destiny.
I made the model of what I was going to do and started my journey with the drawing, but it didn't take long to not know what to do. I had my references, what I had to do, spent the night doing some things, and in the morning, a hit in the face, "it wasn't what I expected," "it looked crappy and didn't look good." Sooo I analyzed it, and finally, one of these pieces got finished.
It was a somewhat tough week; not being able to do what I do is an ugly feeling. But there's something I learned this week, and after all those attempts, I could understand things a bit better and have a better path that I want to go through. Finally, this day is over, and there will be a new start tomorrow.
If you made it this far and read, I appreciate it. I'm not too good at writing, in fact, writing can be quite challenging at times. I might spend more time trying to put words together than actually drawing.
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