It might seem like I'm exaggerating but this is how best I can put it. What's the best way to say that on most days, I want to scream out loud? There's too much going on and I'm mostly mentally and physically stressed. It's always one thing or the other and one can't catch a break. Half a year later, living in a new country keeps getting intense. The itty bitty moments of genuine happiness I get are those reminiscing a simpler life back home with my annoying little puppies or being the brunt of my parents' jokes. Life's not any easier back home currently and thinking of family struggling in the crippling economy makes me even sicker.
I haven't been here on hive in forever and I don't want to give a run down of how depressed I've been as a welcome note. My coping mechanism so far has been accepting that I'm indeed mad but I'm soldiering through it. It's infact a very normal phase for many immigrants to have it tough in the beginning, it eventually gets better they say. Well, I hope it does get better soon and when it does, it should be worth all the stress.
I did miss being on hive though. I occasionally read stuff here to distract myself from life's issues but there's not enough mental energy to write or even be passively active. My friend asked me about writing on hive some days ago and I thought to give it a try today. I guess I stopped writing mainly because I don't want to whine everyday about my struggles because that's all I could come up with. As much as I've been absent on here, I've been absent in real life too, not doing the things I like, maintaining relationships or exploring new activities. Sadly, I can't stretch myself well enough in this phase and I'm only trying to keep afloat.
My goal right now is to be done with school as that is my biggest commitment at the moment. It would be a huge relief and afford me time to worry about other things. I would also like to go on a vacation afterwards to cool off because I sure deserve it. In the midst of it all, I'm grateful because life could actually be worse but we're soldiering through one day at a time. I'm running mad but I'm not dead yet. Anyway, how have you been?
