I don't know if I still know how to hive anymore 馃 It's been so long I wrote a post, the last time I tried, I decided getting sleep was importanter. These last weeks were chaotic for me in all ramifications and to top it all up, I had a painful stomach ache that led to a week of fever.
In fact, I feel like I just came back from war. I was overwhelmed with everything and it took being sick for me to appreciate all that I have. There's still a lot going on in my head and anxiety still has the best of me, but I'm still thankful, I guess.
I have tried almost every day to go back to default and write my daily posts but all I do is stare and choose sleep instead. And no, it's not writer's block, I know exactly what to write and how to write if I put my mind to it, I'm just not putting my mind to it. I'm taking out my frustration on my blog by neglecting because I'm in a 'log out of life' mood. I don't want to do anything and the only part of my day I'm not really obliged to do (in the real sense of the word) is post on hive.
It's hard to remember how calming writing is right now because all I can think of are the many things that have been bothering me. But I want to try, maybe I do need to distract myself from my worries by filling my head with my hive routine once again. The only thing all these worries have done is make me physically sick and I don't want to go down that lane again.
Well, I really don't know how to keep calm when I'm expectant and don't have things in my control and right now, things aren't in my control. All I can do is wait, try not to overthink my way into another sickness, and hope for the best.
Wish me goodluck 馃
