@honeydue...
Good morning... that's kind of a long story LOL. I was young and making some bad life choices. Not criminal, just... you know. Lost my job, lost her car, lost her house, choices. Joining the service was my attempt to prove I wasn't a "bad kid" and NEVER thought they'd actually take me.
Suprise!!... they took me. So noone really knew I had enlisted, until I was heading to Boot Camp. I was another example of someone who had to learn things the hard way... and boy howdy did I learn!
It's early, and I'm rambling...... apologies. Mom was proud of me. One day I might make a post about it. But probably not lol. Proud of you for going through the process of learning about hand guns. Like I was trying to explain in my beginning reply... Doesn't matter (in my opinion) if it's a hand gun, shot gun, shovel, or yes... PENCIL LOL. We make things what they are, they are all "tools" that can only perform the task... by being in "our" hands. Choices......... up to us, how we use them.
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Edit: kudos to 
@godfish for providing the voucher to create this memory for you...
RE: More than you can hold