In 2008 i started working as a backend web developer in a web development company. I was unexperienced and learning many things. After about a year and a half i started to feel terrible aches inside my neck which caused terrible problems while working. Working in front of a computer has become a tiring and painful trouble for me. When i visited a doctor i've learnt that i had neck calcification. There was nothing to do but some physical exercises. He said that a reason of this problem is the structure of my neck which is wider and shorter that many people. At that time i was single and thought of leaving my job as a solution to keep myself from worse, and i actually did it, left my job because of this terrible health problem.
The break i gave in my full time was about two years. During this time i tried to improve myself in web development and started developing my own framework. After these two years i got to a situation that i needed to get a job again. Because i was going to be married soon and had to save money for everything. When my first boss learnt my decision they offerred me my previous job and i accepted. My boss was tolerant to me about my health problem and there was no problem when i needed to have a rest in the office lying on the seat instead of staying in front of my computer. However i had to leave there again for economical reasons after about a year. Their business was going bad those days and number of projects decreased so i didn't want to be an economical load by getting money while the company was not earning. We agreed that they could send me freelance projects so that both sides would benefit from this.
Since then i've been working as a freelance back end developer for a long time. I'm now married and have two children. My health condition directed me to work as a freelance and i'm lucky that i could find a company that i can work for remotely and project based so that i can earn my living and also my family. Today it has been nearly 10 years and i still have same pains without any improvement. Physical exercises don't work and i gave up doing most of them long time ago. I still apply some helpful movements to decrease pain and relax myself. I also get a pain killer pill that helps decrease pain and mostly removes completely in an hour or two, which saves me from this terrible situation in which i don't want to do anything but lie down or turn my head to both sides many times to decrease the pain in my neck.
Sometimes things go wrong in your life and make your life harder than ever. All troubles and health problems in life are a kind of test for human being to see how they behave against these difficulties. I'm trying to force myself against my problem but i also give thanks when i see people with much worse problems in life. People generally look others over them but mostly don't see people lower than them which are in much worse conditions. I don't know how long i will be able to work but i will try what i can and struggle against difficulties in life which will end some day. If you have health or other kind of problems i advise you to do the same since your life is not endless but worth to struggle. I could hardly write this post while getting started to have pain again but my wish for sharing my feelings made me write all these.
Wish you a healthy life..
