I wrote this earlier in the month when I was waiting for biopsy results. I am happy to say that God answered my prayers and that it is not cancer. 🙏 I still wanted to share for anyone else who may be "in the waiting..."
In the waiting, God is working.
A line in a song that felt like a slap in the face. Not the kind of slap that hurts. The kind of slap that wakes you up. Thanks God.
It got me thinking…how many people are in the waiting?
Waiting for results.
Waiting for answers.
Waiting for time to pass.
Waiting for the prodigal son/daughter to come home?
Waiting for a family member to be saved.
Waiting for news.
Waiting for a partner.
Even as believers, we are sometimes called to wait. I am in the waiting right now. It’s a really hard place to be. If I am honest, I don’t always handle it right. I spend my time obsessing about the outcomes. Googling the statistics. Weighing the odds. I spend very little time doing the one thing I’m asked to do by God…
Trust Him. Be still. Have faith.
Because the truth is, no amount of worrying will change Gods plan for us and if there is one thing I have learned in my 42 years, it’s that His plan is far superior to mine.
How can I know that deep down in my core and yet still forget to be still and know that He is God?
My favourite Psalm is 139.
I love how relatable David’s writings can be. When he says “I’m far away” I don’t think that he is talking about a physical distance because God is with us always. I think he’s talking about when we are spiritually distant from God. Like when we spend our time worrying or complaining rather than trusting.
In those moments, we often forget…
He created us.
He desires to have us with Him.
He has a plan for us.
“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvellous - how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Everyday of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed” - Psalm 139:13-16
In this time of waiting, for both you and I, I pray a simple prayer. I ask for forgiveness in the moments of unbelief. I pray the last verse of Psalm 139 (verse 23 & 24) over us…my favourite verse in all the scriptures. I ask that You “search us, O God, and know our heart; test us and know our anxious thoughts. Point out anything in us that offends You and lead us along the path of everlasting life.” Thank you for never leaving us, even in the waiting. You are always faithful.
In Jesus name, Amen.
