Jul 17
When I got home tonight I asked Pete very politely to please wash his hands after the toilet but he didn't. So i pinched him just a tiny bit. And he started screaming like crazy. On purpose so that I get in trouble! I mean it really couldn't have been very painful! Of course, I got scolded right away for forcing to wash up and seriously harming a poor little boy! All upset, I sat down for dinner. And suddenly I notice that Pete is studying one of my papers while touching himself and than putting his hand all over it! I didn't do anything. I just yelled "obviously it's all my fault again" and ran to my room, banging the door behind me. Of course I did hope that for once they will reprimand Pete. But not a chance! You may be surprised but I was in fact the bad one again! This time because I yelled or something like that. They should be honest instead and just say "we don't love you". They gave me a long lecture afterwards, accusing me of forcing Pete to wash. This has had happened before already. They so don't understand me! They literally don't understand what "disgusting" means. Pete is, as usual, standing aside. Smiling inside, I bet! Although they said they scolded him too. It was less than what I got in any case! They so love him more! Mum says that Pete would wash his hands on his own if I don't say anything. But it's not true. As if he would!
Jul 28
Got my ears pierced today! I have been nagging mum to let me to it for weeks now and I finally got her approval just before she left for Russia again (to see a doctor) for 3 weeks yesterday. I cycled to the clinic by myself in the morning. I was a bit nervous. I got somewhat scared. I was expecting it to be a little prick like mum had had it but it turned out to be so painful! I had to shut my eyes out of fear. I don't know how it happened. The needle was inserted slowly and they had to prick the right ear twice because they screwed it up. But then it haven't been hurting at all. I am happy that I've done it. However I thought it would feel different. I don't even feel them, like I don't have anything on! But you can see them still. Can't wait to be able to wear different ones the first earrings have to stay on for a month when you pierce the ears or the holes will disappear . I wonder how to sleep with them? I'd better get a towel. No one really noticed them although I felt like everyone stared on the street.
My favourite English teacher Ana says that when she was little, she was a daddy's girl and her brother was closer to mum. When they had fights dad always stood up for her while mum protected her brother. And I never have anyone on my side! I'll tell you some examples so you can believe that I am not loved. The biggest thing is that they only ever scold me but never Pete. When I tell on him they call me a snitch. If he tells on me, that's fine. In either case, I get in trouble! And besides, I keep getting reprimanded for ridiculous things and Pete hardly ever gets in trouble for anything. He cannot be an absolutely perfect child, can he now? For instance, today dad gave me a talk about having a rubbish bin in my room! Saying that I shouldn't do that. I cannot make any sense of it.
