I hope writing this has served you as an outlet. What I have learned, with the things that have happened in my country and with the lockdown, is that these things will happen and we cannot avoid it, we don't have control of what happens, we can fight and fight with it and many times nothing will change. Sometimes it even needs to happen. So it's like the old truism says, to flow with the river, and trust. Sometimes it is a matter of time, where we can do nothing but wait. And if we wait a long time and nothing changes on the outside, by that time, we have probably changed, on the inside, and we have found an alternative. We don't control what happens in the world, but we do control how we react to it. We can choose between suffering or peace. We are always free.

But I digress.

I hope you are following your intuition. Good luck!