I was suffering beyond compare yesterday. I found BoA's news on my Google News feed. I clicked and scrolled through the post. Then bits and pieces of thoughts started creeping in.
What if I wasn't sick? What if I really blew it this time? Like really blew my chances that I was going to be with BoA. But due to my big mouth and super big mouth, I made her disappear from the scene that very day of the Dating Hub retreat. When Morgan's Facebook suddenly posted a memory of a BoA pic he was obsessed with 5 years ago, I just thought... what if she had really showed up... We'd be fighting for BoA's attention. There would a blood bath not only between us, but all the guys in the retreat. All the other 32 girls would have hated BoA so much, ghosts and demons would start appearing due to the negative energy that was being generated right there right then.
In reality... she didn't show up.
THANK GOD!
I was in my room talking myself thinking that since she doesn't show up as a participant, at least I may have a chance to get taught by her in the dance class that Masquerade night. HECK. She dances Michael Jackson and the facilitator said, the instructor does Michael Jackson. IT HAD TO BE HER!
Turns out. A husband and wife team showed up.
That very Saturday, I knew that this was all in my head. It was all a fantasy that I made up to distract me from my lonely life. The perfect defence mechanism.
I had a headache on both days of the retreat.
Moving on was easier than I thought. It was a fantasy anyway. I somehow met baby boo. We exchanged Whatsapp messages. We first met 15 September. 20 September we decided to become a thing. With no dating whatsoever, we changed our Facebook status to in a relationship with each other. this is short version
She showed up for the Taylor's Symphony Orchestra concert for our first ever date which turned out like a nightmare. I asked her to ask her mom how she thinks of me. She said NO COMMENT.
No comment?? That is a bad remark!!! She said she will never let me see her messages again because of my reaction. That made me even more depressed.
Then she accused me of lying to my mom the car park was near! The car park is a very big car park. I parked at the very front. If it was far, we would have to walk another 10 minutes!!
Double whammy. I felt super stressed. I said good night, thought about our date that night and said to myself. Isn't the 1st date supposed to be the happiest of times? I slept like a baby.
The day baby boo left for Ipoh, I had to send her back by car because we missed the train talking too much. I found out even more stuff that got me thinking I have to end this!!!
7 days after declaring us gf bf, I said we were no more!! I told my counsellor that I am sorry for being selfish this time. But I cannot go on with this because I will not be happy.
A whole lot of events took place right after that.
Guess what?
We are back together again. There was a major factor that led me to think that she is the one. I guess you will have to wait till the day I can tell the world why it is so.
God bless!
p.s. BoA posted a picture of Penang Bridge a few days before the retreat. She has removed the picture the last time I checked a week or 2 ago.
The mystery need not be solved.
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