It's been 6 months and I still expect to hear your voice, to hear your laugh. There have been so many times that I have reached for my phone to call you, so many times. You were the one, that I would always turn to whenever I was upset, whenever I needed to talk things through.
6 months and the pain remains. It is a part of me now, grieving is now part of my journey and I will spend the rest of my life grieving for you,but I know that in time it will get easier. You live on, in the stories I tell my daughters and in the songs they make up about you. We talk about you everyday and celebrate you and all that you gave us and continue to give us.
How lucky I am to have had you in my life, to have you as my sister.
This is the poem I wrote for you 6 months ago, this is my celebration of you!
I close my eyes and see your face,
that smile that radiates love
that radiates your inner mischievous self
I hear so many songs that take me back to you
that wrap me up in shades of blue,
the many shades that will always be a part of you.
Those times when we danced and dreamed ourselves as stars
in our eyes we were super stars,
we were invincible,
Oh how we loved to create and prerform.
I close my eyes and hear your voice,
the many times you lifted me up
the many times you guided me and comforted me.
And all Those times
when you were hurting inside
you always pushed it aside,
not wanting anyone to worry about you.
I close my eyes and feel your strength,
I feel your courage,
How you blew us all away with your inner power,
your power that surrounds us all now
that carries us,
that reminds us ,
of how lucky we are,
to be blessed with your love,
to have been blessed with your presence.
I close my eyes
I hear you laugh
I see you
I feel you
I search for fairies amongst the trees with you,
My warrior sister,
I carry you always, with me.
