So yeah there is this part of me that a lot of people don’t really actually know, or maybe the fact that they just overlook it because of the way I do act sometimes, people who know me generally think I am a talkative, playful, or always in the mood to gist, yhey think I am that person that is always present, or always available, always ready to vibe, but the truth is, I have a very quiet side, so like, extremely quiet, and honestly, I wish people actually knew that part of me exists.
I am the type of person that can be in a group of people laughing and talking, but in reality, I am just observing everything, see, I notice small things, when someone’s tone changing, someone zoning out, or someone pretending to be fine when they are not, I can be in the middle of noise, but my mind is far away, just watching and analyzing, trying to understand things, people don’t really see that side because I don’t show it openly, they only see the surface.
Sometimes, I even prefer silence, there are days when I don't want to talk to anybody, not because I am angry or upset, but because my mind just wants peace, see I enjoy being in my own world, thinking, planning, or just looking at life the way it is, and funny enough, when I go quiet, people think something is wrong with me, so they start asking, “Are you okay? Did something happen? Why are you dull?” Meanwhile, that is my default mode , quiet, observant, calm.
Yeah, I think the reason most people don’t know this side of me is because I don’t let them see it often, you see I am the kind of person that adapts to the energy around me, how do you say it, "Aura for Aura" that's me, If I am with loud people, I blend in, and If I am with quiet people, I become quiet too, But then deep down, I am more of the sit down and watch type, you see I enjoy studying people, not in a creepy way o, but in a way where I try to understand why they behave the way they do.
To be honest, I wish people understood that I am not always in the mood to talk or gist, yeah.... You know Sometimes I just want someone who can sit with me in silence without asking unnecessary questions, someone who gets that silence is not me being sad ,it is just me being me.
And the funny thing is, being observant actually helps me a lot, it actually saves me from people who talk too much but say nothing meaningful, It protects me from people who pretend too, You would be shocked how much you can pick up by just staying quiet and watching.
So yes , that is one side of me people barely know , even my family , the quiet, observant version of me, the one that is comfortable in silence, the one that sees things others don’t notice, the one that doesn’t always need to talk to feel alive, I am not always loud, and I am not always out there too, Sometimes, I am just in my small bubble, observing life and minding my business, and honestly ehm… that part of me is my favorite.
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