Sometimes ago, the idea of attending tertiary institution seems like a really far fetched topic, like seriously, it felt like an impossible task, see, then I just felt it was really impossible, and I dont know why I did.
I had so many reasons in my head then,Money,fear,age,responsibilities,self doubt. Everything just stacked up against me and I kept telling myself "Maybe school wasn't for me" I had almost accepted that maybe that chapter of my life was closed, but then deep down, i wanted to go to school,I wanted the knowledge , the experience, the certificate, the everything that comes with going to school,but you know that wanting something and believing you can achieve it are kinda two different things, see I didnt believe myself at all.
And I remember there was one day o sat down, thinking about school, and there instead of excitement, i felt fear, the fear of failing, fear of actually not fitting in, the fear of being the odd one out, and most important, the fear of starting something and not being able to finish it, then I had to push the thoughts away.
But you see, life has a really funny way of putting people in your path, people that see things that you cannot see in yourself. So there were few special people who kept talking to me about school, and all that, some of them went out of their way to support me financially and that was a big motivation for me, some of them didn't give up on me , they kept on giving me reasons to push through.
There was onne of them that their word stucked and till date, this words still have a place in my life, cos when i remember it, i always want to do more, see me i cannot settle for less in any way. This is what they said "You keep saying that you cannot do it, but what if you can?" that word "what if you can?".
And that is why I dont want my life to be on chances, I take very bold steps , even though i might not know what I am doing at that particular time, it all just makes sense with time.
So that time, I applied for school, even though i was still scared, I didnt tell alot of people, just cos I didnt want to raise alot of hopes. And when I even got the admission, i didnt shout or anything, I just sat there with my phone and looked at myself, "so I would finally become a student?" I was happy to be honest.
Now school was not beans, the first and the last year showed me shege promax, there were lots of times that I even doubted myself, until i voiced out and someone in church told me that "Treasure , I admire you aloto, you know you are a smart lady,and nothing would be too tough for you to handle in this your school."
And like that three years came and went and I became a graduate of a school, just like that.
Me that thought that I wouldn't even start the school, see these moments taught me somethings I will never forget, sometimes, even if you do not believe in yourself, take that step and sometimes talk to the right people, some people words can push you on a great start.
For me, those people changed my life, they made me believe in the me I couldn't see.
And to me these are moments that really matters.
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