I've just typed, then erased, about a billion words (give or take), because none of them work for what I'm trying to say. "Fuck" really does seem to cover it though, doesn't it. ☹️
While I don't have anything useful to add, I do want you to know you're not alone. And if you're okay with it, I'd like to add your name to a weekly Healing & Blessing post in a witchy FB group I belong to. I'm also sending all the positive energy I can muster in the direction of you, your kids, and even your ex, in the hopes you can all heal from all this as soon as possible. Oh, and a bit extra to your lawyer, so he can get you all the help you need.
Shout out any time if there's anything I can do for you, dear lady.
RE: Separation is hard as HELL