Do you ever feel fake?
Every morning when you try to smile and make small talks with both people you like and do not like, does it make you feel like you are fake?
Or do you feel it is a necessary evil to at least have a semblance of peace around you and a semblance of happiness in your life?
I do not have a straight forward answer actually, I just strongly believe in diplomacy.
My father is a natural diplomat and I learnt most things about diplomacy from him. He taught me to avoid trouble by choosing my words and not painting what I feel all the time on the expressions on my face. I learnt to be angry and smile and then try to resolve issues peacefully.
But as I grow older I reconsider all I have been taught, not to throw them aside but to reevaluate why I do what I do.
I realised that diplomacy is a necessary evil but sometimes it feels nice to do exactly what you want to do without looking too hard at people's feelings.
However it must be balanced.
Right now, I don't know what that balance is but I am trying hard so I don't lose people or myself.
©Onashile Peace(tolarnee)
5/3/2018