I want to walk through the pain if only knowing that it’s brighter on the other side, just that step one ahead could make a difference of me pushing forward,
I want to walk through the pain showing that this life is not the end of it, but another beginning of a whole new chapter undefined,
I want to walk through the pain only to the point where I can use this pain in order to thrive harder, be better, fulfilling all of your imagination and make a difference once and for all,
I want to walk through the pain pretending that is never painful on the inside but show the strength from the inside that will later radiate on your outward goals,
I want to walk through the pain never to fight for revenge but to find the peace from the inside instead, working through healing in silence and just being present.
I want to keep myself in silence just to survive with another day of heaviness, I cannot keep mind circling around that makes me scared,
I want to keep myself in silence just keep my target keep happening as I slowly walk through them never noticing the time goes by that fast,
I want to keep myself in silence drowning myself with multiple tasks to keep me busy, keep me unaware of the this pain through this healing journey,
I want to keep myself in silence to keep learning myself into her deepest core, honestly understanding what is she wants to achieve with this process undefined,
I want to keep myself in silence just not to keep on falling into another boundary breached unnoticed, unexplainable and unexpected…
I want to see what’s more to come from all of these painful beginnings, from a heavy heart of wonderland of expectations, mixed fantasy and hopes,
I want to see what’s more to come from all of these painful beginning from all of the countless chances, but these is all I got after wanting to understand,
I want to see what’s more after being broken down, from all of these disrespect, blaming and carrying of all of the emotional load that I couldn’t carry alone,
I want to see what’s more after holding me down to my deepest core, to my multiple deepest breakdowns, endless taunting and drama,
I want to see what’s more after letting go of all of my sense of control, after all of these shaking from breaking both from the inside out, I’m still trying to figure out how?…
I want to remove myself from being shattered all at once, unprepared, unaware why this happened to me, of all the person in the world, why me?
I want to remove myself from this circumstances that I cannot even control, I scared to my bones, I don’t know what’s in control that’s you’re addicted to,
I want to remove myself from your leash, from all of your control, from all of your unemotional tripping, from all of my memories that I’ve travelled,
I want to remove myself from the chances that went progressive because of my own self, is this what I get just wanting to feel something,
I want to remove myself from this world wind trap, I just want to be free, free from all of these pain, from all of these undefined feeling, so I can feel like myself again…
Watchwords:
I should be home by now,
Keep talking to yourself,
Everything will be alright now,
Free from my mindless hurricane
When can I be home again,
Here is Tikatarot, who dares you to answer the question, “Who am I?”..
As and will always be reminding you to dream:
