I started this blogging thing not long ago. I’m very new to hive (less than a month) but I’m not very new to blogging. And what made me quit the other blockchain was lack of a community. When I say a community what I mean is people that actually fuck with what you do. To me, a community doesn’t have to be many people. If it’s just three or four, I’m cool with it as far as the energy is genuine.
Last week, I did a brief assessment of my posts here and I realize that I don’t have any community around and that’s actually because I don’t belong to any community.
When I started here, I found some really interesting posts that I felt were my type so I added the authors to my favorites and turned their posts notifications on so I can see their posts immediately after they publish.
In as much as this was a good strategy for me as it helped me find this place quite interesting because I was regularly reading things I’m excited about, it also brought some kind of unnecessary pressure on me.
These favorite authors were pros and they’ve probably been here for years. I’ve not spent a month yet on hive but because they kept publishing posts every single day, it kinda pressured me to also write a post at least once every 24 hours.
Whilst this was not really bad as it helped me gather very few upvotes, I realized later that this is not what I want. I have to like something myself before I put it out. If due to some kind of pressure, I post some rubbish here that I know is not dope, and anyone leaves a nice comment as if my post was dope, I’ll believe that he/ she is lying to me and I would be bored to give an energetic reply.
This practice dragged me to zero comments on my posts. I still managed to dig some little upvotes but the number of comments kept declining until it finally stopped coming. This made me sad so I turned all post notifications of my favorite authors off.
Now it’s been days since I stopped receiving notifications and I’m yet to write something actually good. I don’t also understand my problem and I’m even beginning to think this is another empty post.
But also whilst writing this, I’ve figured out that I can’t really write anything at my best ability if my mind isn’t right. My mind thinks all the time. At default, my mind is filled with thoughts. This has actually made it difficult for me to focus.
So you have just wasted your time reading a post about why I couldn’t write any post, because I couldn’t write any post. Stuuuupit Dumbass😭!!
But if you’re not angry already then please leave a comment or just read my previous post so it’ll look like you did not actually waste your time.
