she sits at my feet
not really like that
just happens to be sitting there with her daughter on the floor
playing
my feet touch her skin
we always connect
its nice
she hears me and i see her
we watch each other in life
and care for each other
we kiss well too
she is my many-ith girl i have dated
i made up that word many-ith
i dated a lot after my marriage ended
all the dating was more of a looking for home
who will offer a home to me, allow me to be their home
who can I make feel at home in my life?
home changes after divorce
that comfort feeling of warmth and love
family and fire, food and shelter
it vanishes
you go from living on an island to living on the sea
fluid , open clear and different
you now are to make what is appearing as home
its not things anymore
its a relationship with feeling, with that something
that never changed
you cling to this deep space of wisdom with everything
you share it with the trees, the oceans, a cup of tea and poetry
this is your liferaft, this is you
as people and places appear in your life
you see them
play with them
act and sing , dance and eat within the scene
at times, the pain of not feeling connected to it
happens
you wonder
why
how
did
I
get here
then Stop, and find your relationship again
that wisdom is your park bench your place
so you bless those who enter this place
realizing what was appearing as home in the past
perhaps was illusion
grasping onto a story thinking it offered something
it did in depth but the edges broke and faded
continue the walk of the mystic
it is home, it is home
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Love is...