I have been drinking A LOT. My head is spinning. I am barelt sble to erite this (LOL)
I am careless about the amount I earn tonight. I have to get this out. My tears are crying out and they deserve a voice!!
Divorce sucks. And I say that in the best way possible.
It hurts and it's devastating. Yet all in all its for the best.
Divorce is prevalent among the American population. And from the research I did Russia is not far behind.
I can only speak from my experiences and my point of you. I am a product of a divorce as a child. I spent many years as a "stepmom", if you will. And now, I am the divorcee mom.
I cannot tell you enough how toxic my marriage was. We were never really on the same page and not much was ever a joint effort or affair.
I am so much more happy NOT being in my marriage. Yet the after effects of the separation have been debilitating at
times. Having to suddenly go from supplemental income to being the breadwinner with a small child was an utter shock. I am a go getter in life, but when shit smacks you in the face sometimes it takes a minute to shake it off.
Being an extremely positive soul and caring for people deeply, it hurts when I have anger toward my Ex.
I am very fond of deep breathing and taking steps back. Finding my center and praying!
This post is really for me, to get my shit out in a forum that is non judgemental and caring. I must work through my emotions and my feelings and writing is definetely an outlet I have enjoyed in the past and am beginning to dive deeper into as I dive deeper into the steemit ocean!
If you are struggling in a marriage that isn't serving you or your partner, please step back, reevaluate and if needed ask for help. It serves NO ONE to be stuck.
Marriage can be a wonderful thing, and so can divorce.
Thank you for letting me share. Thank you to #thealliance for being my support and 
In order to be positive you must recognize the negatives and CHOOSE to focus on the positive.
