Oh, how interesting!

It reflects my Dutch which has deteriorated after barely speaking any of it for 10 years as well.
Funny thing is - I can, for the most part, understand it very well. It's the explaining myself or actually USING words that I know subconsciously that I struggle with.

Do you feel the same with English? Do you feel like you can say, still type like a native, but struggle to speak like one?

And that's a REALLY interesting outlook on positivity. Very pragmatic. Reminds me a little about a fantasy novel I'm reading that a friend wrote, based on Mindfulness.
Basically, one of the characters makes the point that truth is boring and depends on facts that fluctuate based on circumstance, whereas lies (which he doesn't see negatively - telling yourself it's going to be alright when everything sucks, is technically a "lie" because you don't know) are under your own control.
It's a Zen-ish attitude of being happy regardless of what the "objective" reality is.

Sorry for spamming your thread, your videos always make my mind wander (in a good way) :)
Keep on keeping on!