I don't care anymore. I created my own reality. I wake up, work, eat, walk, sleep. It's round the clock strict regimen just so I don't feel anymore.

Aishhhhh, that is a sad statement my friend. There are many many decent people on this planet... and a small percentage of idiots, morons, rubbish people...alas they make the most noise and unhappiness for the majority. You seem to be an asshole magnet {frown}... {thinks} or you may perhaps trigger the 'asshole' in people ...