Something inside of me is pulling towards the surface
To distract me... to coerce me through...
I am in fear of all of the uncertain
Its daunting and I can't see through...
I want to find myself again and I wonder where it ends
I have been lost on this floor and yet I still not sure
I crawl into my sins and look to feel for what is real
I am yet to know my wins... for loss is all I feel
I don't know what is for sure... but I can't be cured
I call out to you with all of my uncertains
Distracting and destroying my truths
You do answer me with all of your learnings
You teach me and try to push me through
Yet I am drowning in the shallows of you
Crawling through the mud and the goo
Searching for a single escape and yet knowing what is true
Today I crawl no more
I find my legs to stand or collapse for sure
Ending the bitterness of knowing not
And wondering what it is to be...
Go with me or go without
Only you will ever know
I must be so young to crawl beneath the surface
No walking... no running... now I can't see...