Ultimately it was about loyalty and trust for adaptability through all adversity. I tested for this as much as I could, but it was a real life experiment. I took a risk. The risk was under my control to a certain extent - I made sure I invited the negative of every potential situation first. That said, some things were still beyond the imagination... the euphoric and the dysphoric... that's the ride you choose to go on... and everything worked out perfectly in the end.
The first feeling and eye contact was pure love. She reciprocated my compliments and initiated help - she worked in a harsh environment and was incredibly stunning throughout it all. She was observant and could handle every part of me. I knew early on she was capable of raising three children without me. She was stubborn, but submissive, and it was a pleasure to be present around her. She had the maturity and intelligence to understand what was required, for her own attraction as much as for my own purpose.
I gave her almost everything - I still needed my soul. I was committed to my higher vision first and foremost. But she got everything she could ever want or need. I just made sure as hell I was a King first and that there were no misunderstandings. That had to come from me and that part actually wasn't about what I wanted - it was about what was vital. We were young, but I had seen enough mistakes before, and I put an end to the mistake my father and all other cowardly men made. I simultaneously overcame every mother issue I possibly had. Even objectively speaking she was definitely the best, and I was 100% committed to the best.
