. .. grace and harmony in places often overlooked…
I’ve got a new book, I was going to drop into it in random places each day and just take a life lesson away from what I read but it appears that the book has a structure (with seasons to it) — it’s always right up my street because this month is pure clarity, boy oh boy am I ever here for that.
Well that’s my birthday in the can for another year, kinda weird how it felt this year, did not have the usual build up and life affirming few days before where the haze just seemed to clear and I could make out the shape of everything in front of me — which, while different, this just might be the new normal anyway, a sustained clarity every single day instead.
Because of this I’ve been finding myself trusting my gut instincts more than usual and instead of being aggrieved with things I can’t change re-up and focus on the things that effect my flow instead — listen to myself in terms of what adds in any kind of ‘settling’ energy and literally dash past it to the next thing. I’ve got places to be you know?
Right now I’m looking for something, a strand onto the next thing I should be doing. I do feel a sense of overwhelming energy that suggests it’s something life affirming and of value past the usual day to day (of what I still love) of making the courses and the videos — either way, it’s laced with self improvement vibes and again, I’m here for that.
two weeks ago I really did not know how this month was going to turn out but now, 18 days in I’m pretty thankful to the universe for giving me clarity of mind to be able to focus up, prove to myself that I can rapidly put presentations together still and do the life logistics to get me there by analog day to day transportation whilst protecting my grey matter from the world around it — the world that seeps in and disrupts the flow.
Having joy in what others can’t see doesn’t mean to be arrogant or selfish here I don’t think today, I think it means take time for reflection, to bathe and sit in the warm waters while the world outside the hot spring is tepid and still.
I had a few moments of pure clarity in the last week that allowed me to just step up and immerse myself again, I felt like I looped around and looked back at a former version of myself and instead of being reactive with responses I adapted to what my core was saying to me, the words just fell out onto a blank page..
‘I’m afraid I’m too busy going forward that I don’t have time to build out, educate and format to the way that you learn’
Or at least words to that effect. I wasn’t trying to be rude or arrogant but it was my gut telling me and announcing that ‘hey, the stuff is out there, you need to get into it, instead of waiting for the spoon fed format in the way you have always known’ -- I’m going that way, forward, I’ll be here at the frontline when you crib the information and catch up, I’ll be waiting.
At first I think my reaction was a defence to the fact that in some way this person in front of me might be wanting to belittle my efforts but I stood fast, after all, what I had just described I had truly lived for the last three years — the fact that it was ‘over someone’s head’ should not be a time for me to re-evaluate that I’m not the complete version someone expected me to be.
The calming effect was instant, truly clarity and joy — it’s a powerful combination when they are arrive together, being in tune with your mind and you heart in equal measure instead of trying to force one or the other to react often with terrible results!
I might not know how the next two weeks is going to go but as I sit here today, a day after my birthday, a week after my first presentation in years, two weeks into a brand new decade with full potential and possibilities I can truly say that I’m in a place of clarity and joy.
You have enough,
You are enough.
Peace and Hugs!
__humble x
