This month is clarity month.
I never realised this before but whenever I have momentum energy at the start of a new year it’s because I’m really trying to attain clarity. I just assumed it was a fresh momentum because of the clean slate but it turns out that my ‘star sign’ is very much like this in the early part of the year, seeking clarity to my world and where I want to be within it.
The daily stoic book I got recently - meditations on wisdom, perseverance and the art of living is right up my street and just being able to jump in daily and read a page and get back to what I’m doing is like a real needle to the arm high of words that I need to get going again.
Kinda had a double edge sword to the last few days, yesterday was meditate on my actions and deep dive into my rituals (we all have them in the morning) after the usual wake up routine.. today it hit me with ‘our plans for our future descend from the past’
It’s a major reason why I skip around and go back and re-evaluate and to the outside world that looks like chaos. I understand peoples need for a structured approach, to show learning, maybe even back is up in some way but I’ve never enjoyed that feeling of egotism that gave me. I don’t want to be limited by the judgement of a ‘level’ of understanding.
I just want to be. To live in this moment, to exist within it too, to reflect on it and to put lines under when things could have been handled different and to reboot and refresh and go again — I’m certainly finding levels of different mantras which really start to help me frame who I am right now/today.
There is nothing worse than being cloudy with just the random sliver of hope that you will end up to that person you see yourself as eventually.
I’d much prefer to be present and acknowledge where the weak spots on and build on evaluative decisions retracing from the past and putting them to bed instead of repeating the same mistakes.
Go all in on that, look at your digital ‘estates’ and assets and where you see progress go all in on that — right now I’ve got two platforms (building out the third) that are doing 3x better than last year already and I think that’s because I’ve been ‘feeding’ the algorithm on those platforms more.
I’ve started to look at this as a digital utility belt of applications that I spend a little time on each day — I don’t want it to be repetitive and just a series of steps thou, I want it to weave into the very fabric of day to day life, I’ve automated a bunch of things for the outreach side and will react to responses to those throughout the day.
I’ve noticed what helps my mental health more than anything is the notion of passive freedom. I’m not free, I don’t think many of us are, so pretending that we are is an illusion that does not serve us very well so I’ve started to treat my life almost passively.
The problem with a passive life is that it eventually costs you more to not commit more back into life, it’s the journey and momentum energy that keeps the costs down, if you are moving, you are healthy, if you are healthy you have clarity, with clarity you can learn new skills — skills that other people might want to hire you for.
Maybe I never communicated that, maybe I never had the insights enough on what made me so laser focused and self centric but reading more from the daily stoic is making me realise that I really do follow this Zeno of Citium, Athens, early 3rd century BC stuff and I never really knew it.
Stoicism is a philosophy of personal ethics informed by its system of logic and its views on the natural world
I always assumed that my love for the natural world was built on the fact that I was a ground sign, that for others it’s the sky/clouds but for me it’s like the need to be close to the ground, to feel the heartbeat of the planet and get adversely effected by the resonance of it.
Feeling in a good place thou I have to say, I have clear objectives, maybe this January clarity is doing me some good. I feel ready to commit to back to back hours of video recording today, let’s get into it.
I’ll see you on the other side.
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