It is just after 5am, I had had 2 hours sleep before being awoken at 2.30, I have a training session at 8 and I can't go to the office early because I will need to pick up some food, but the only shop on the way doesn't open til 6 am. I can make do on very little sleep, so will manage, but it doesn't mean that I enjoy this feeling that my head is going to topple off.
Thankfully, the training session is a short one of only a few hours, but I have left some of my prep til this morning, which would have been fine under normal conditions, but in hindsight, I should have worked on the weekend for it instead. It isn't great thinking this tired.
I think that after the session I will take a few hours to myself and head to the hardware store to price up some material options - this is what I call "me time" of late, as it breaks the routine of work, while still adding value to what I need to do. I wonder if part of the reason I can't really get into entertainment activities much these days is because I have so much work to do - or at least, keep myself busy with things that I consider work and these things take time and energy.
While laying in bed trying to fall back to sleep, I gave up and decided to read something instead, rather than write. Stupidly, I decided on the news, something that I tend to stay away from like the plague, as every time I do randomly check it, it is filled with stupid, and today was no exception. Ridiculous US politics (Can it still be called politics?), ridiculous stories about celebrities that I don't even know from Instagram or someplace, ridiculous embedded adverts for products and brands pretending they are stories and - all of them filled with ridiculous tweets from nobodies in an attempt to social proof the content for validity.
What a waste of time. I should have written instead.
At least with writing I can have an intelligent conversation with myself - well, a conversation anyway. There is more social value in this for me than there is in reading the news as I think that while I have very little idea most of the time as to what ridiculous stories are circulating the 24 hour news cycle (12 hour perhaps now), I can't generally hold a decent conversation about aspects of them that people talk about, with very little background information.
I am not sure if this is a good or a bad thing however, as while I can hold the conversation, I don't reference much of much and it seems now that everyone likes to Google for their "own" thoughts, they have the belief that unless someone else with a name said it first, it is invalid. Don't you find it interesting that "invalid" means being without foundation, truth or law - and it also means disabled?
I have often questioned the way some parents raise children, especially in the way they feed them and wonder, at what point does a poor diet become child abuse. I feel that if a child is raised being fed a poor diet, they are being set up for failure in many ways that will affect them for life. I also think that this can include informational diets too - where parents can feed their kids thoughts that can affect them in limiting ways also.
But, at what point do we become "invalid" as humans in general - at what point do our human abilities degrade so much that we can no longer be considered human? For example, if someone cruel and lacking compassion, we call them "inhumane" - which literally means not human. Yet, if our culture makes us cruel and lacking in compassion, does that mean we are evolving ourselves to not be humans? Just like the dietary abuse, where is the line?
From the inside of the system, we will maintain consistency as we will see ourselves as progressing, but hold the narrative as always us - but, I wonder if we were able to observe ourselves over time from the outside, would we see that we had evolved into a new species? Out of all the animals on earth, humans have the special ability to have a very heavy hand in our own development, as well as the environments in which we develop - Based on the changes and decisions we make, at what point do humans fork into something else completely?
It is interesting to consider, isn't it? I think that in the past, evolution has created a strengthening of a species through evolving changes that improve the chances of survival in conditions - but when we are able to engineer the conditions in such extreme ways, are we going to evolve to become stronger, or weaker? If we grow in some kind of vacuum or low gravity environment, do our muscles improve? What about when it comes to our experience, where we spend our time consuming a diet of engineered and curated content specially delivered for us in order to make us click more and more?
Perhaps though, none of this matters to most of us as one thing we can't be, is outside of the ecosystem that contains us.So regardless of what an individual may think on any topic, our evolution is going to be dictated by the masses - and the masses seem content with discontent.
Taraz
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