I Won't Lose Him

My life has turned into a nightmare before my very eyes. I never thought my perfect little life would be having a total makeover in just a few years. All those happiness, seeming peace and laughter that once flooded my now 'so empty life' have all been blown away like chaff before the wind. I really can't believe my eyes. No way, this isn't happening!

Last night made it five nights in a row since I last set eyes on my husband. One would think we got into a fight, or that I cheated on him or anything of some sort but there's nothing I can point out as the reason why he has become so distant all of a sudden.

Saying he has become distant doesn't quite cut it anymore. I could have said that on the first night he spent outside with his phones switched off and me not having any means of contacting him. Right now, he's just simply a shadow of himself.
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I remember when Mike and I first met, he was this subtle young man who was mostly extroverted and said few words to anyone. He kept to himself mostly and during the industrial training where we met, he was one of the most smartly dressed persons which made it very easy for anyone to notice him. We got talking on a particular day that our project director paired us in two's randomly and it so happened that he was my partner.

At first, it was weird for us to exchange ideas because he had issues communicating with anyone much more than a girl. The project was to be submitted in three weeks and we didn't start anything meaningful till the end of the first week. From being project partners we graduated into friends, more than friends and then we finally got married. Seem so long ago now.

I remember the first time he met my parents. He was fidgeting. I couldn't laugh. My mom had asked me why I was all smiles and laughing, alluding to him. Little did she know, I guess she was kind of correct. What I wouldn't give to have those days back. Those days when he was so shy and would dote on me like I'm a child. The beauty of newfound love.

I had narrated his recent behaviour to my close friend Lisa and she seems to think that Mike is probably cheating on me. I am finding it difficult to be able to include Mike and cheating in the same sentence so much that Lisa and I had a big fight that day and till now, we're still not speaking. Now that I think about it, maybe she was right and Mike is beginning to see other women.

Does this mean that I am not enough? I'm just 29 and Mike and I have been married for just a year now. We've not even had children at all because we wanted to enjoy our time together before the thoughts of kids start to come in. I am still as beautiful as I was if not more beautiful, so why would my husband leave me for another woman?

No! That can't be it. It can't be! Mike and another woman, are not a possibility. I'm certain there has to be another explanation for his recent behaviour. There has to be. Maybe I'm not being a good wife enough to him, maybe he doesn't find me attractive anymore or maybe it's because I cut my hair last week and he preferred it long.

I know what to do, instead of laying around the house moping and thinking, I'll get up, get dressed in one of those pretty dresses he got me last month and head for his office.

It's high time I begin to make a conscious effort ls to combat this growing distance between us before he becomes even more distant!
I'm certain that I'll get my man back, God help me!