For the past three days my mind has been clouded with despair. Well, a person should never be disappointed and should always look for a ray of hope. If I speak for myself, I am a very optimistic person. Sometimes both your heart and mind become sad together.I have a similar situation these days. You may have noticed that for the last two days I have not been writing, although it is very rare that I stop writing.
I think there were many reasons behind this sadness which I have found by brainstorming. I don't know wether i should call it sadness, frustration or disappointment.I think three of these things combined and blew away my thoughts.
The main reason behind my disappearance from platform was actually my job. I am a teacher in local private school. I teach them English subject. These days second term's exams are approaching. That's why i was busy with preparation of worksheets, syllabus setting and i was also teaching them in speed. Amidst of all these things i was not getting proper time. Even if i was getting time then i was not managing that time properly.
Second reason is also my job. I have almost completed my one month in school as a teacher. I became so much attached to students and they are also attached to me. I love the story time with students. You know whenever they request me to narrate them any story, i always narrate them novels,which i have read, but in short form. I also love to listen to their home activities. I am kind of teacher who play both roles of teacher and friend. Well, i think i should not just appreciate myself. Opps. So the point is that within two or three days i wil leave the school. That is making me sad.
Third reason is daughter of these reasons.Infact i want to say that all these reasons are cross linked with each other and strongly attached. After few days i will go back hostel, as my university life is resuming, i am happy to go back to hostel and happy to walk in university but i will miss my home because the leisure which i have at my home, no one can find anywhere.
Moreover, I was nor receiving that much response on ecency so this was also making me a bit sad but not much.