At the beginning of the year, I said to myself, “I will not cry as much”, but I lied. Oh, I cried so much, but the thought that I am upskilling helps me forget the long days and nights of tears that the year brought with it.
Life is interesting because it is not a straight line. It is a combination of the good, bad, ugly and beautiful, however, sometimes, I imagine what it’ll feel like having just one emotion throughout the year. I mean having your life together with zero reason to cry, lacking nothing, and living life just the way you want, and it’s so beautiful, but then, life has a way of being life.
This year stressed me, but I am grateful for the stress because it came quite early in the year, so, I had enough time to get over the pains quite early too.
This year, my family and I fundraised surgery money for my sister, I emptied my savings towards my mum’s health, prayed a lot because things were constantly going haywire, got rejections that sent me into depression, and helped someone that turned around to want to hurt me. It was indeed a year!
However, amidst all these, I have reasons to celebrate. I celebrated my friends’ weddings, went out more to celebrate with the people that mean so much to me, and achieved two great feats that weren’t even part of my 2025 resolutions.
First, ulcer took me to the hospital only once this year, and I am so grateful for that. Last year, my doctor would ask me, “how long did I intend to be visiting the hospital because of ulcer”, but it wasn’t my fault that it was like that, however, this year, I took the battle against hospital admission seriously by going there only once and stayed only overnight.
This may not seem like something much, but to me, it’s a sign that I’m getting better at taking care of myself. Not that I don’t do that, but I had to make sure I take the stress of visiting the hospital often off my list, and I improved greatly this year.
One other thing this year brought to me is an opportunity to upskill. I would’ve planned this as part of the year resolutions, but I knew I needed a lot of money to even include it in my plans, and I also knew that there was nowhere I would get the amount of money I needed, but life brought the opportunity for me on a gold platter.
I stumbled on an assessment online, did it, and then two months later, got an email that I had been selected to take the course fully funded. The learning journey has been tough, but I am enjoying every bit of it, because it’s one of those things that make 2025 a great year for me.
Right now, I have forgotten many of the reasons I cried this year, and I have chosen the path of gratitude. I am grateful for the things that be, the ones that didn’t and honestly, till the end of the year, I only see myself focusing on my learning journey and getting better at it.
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