Learning to be gentle and kind to myself has been the greatest source of healing for me. Self love.
There was a time I was so stuck in feeling like time had passed me by and my life was "LATE" because of comparing myself to others. Because I spent the first almost 7 years of my life stuck in the throws of severe depression and anxiety and hardly doing much with my life due to the paralysis depression brings, it was difficult to get over the feeling and lies being whispered in my mind about being a failure.
By the time I was healing and recovering and I looked around at people I was with in high school and campus doing what we call great things with their lives and I felt I had really nothing to show for mine by people's standards, the lies would scream louder in my head for a few years more how much of a waste my life had been because after all we live in a material world where success is defined by possessions and fame and physical things.
But what this amazing journey came to show and reveal to me is that what I gained from all the years of internal pain and traumatic experiences was far greater than money and fame could buy me.
The level of soul growth, wisdom, compassion and deep insight that comes from deep pain and a solitary life is something no school or money could buy.
You literally have been in a boot camp of accelerated growth that only your soul can comprehend.
I had to own my own life and refuse to be compared to others. Yes I may have been a 'late' bloomer by worldly standards in many things, but the very concept of TIME was shattered in my soul forever.
Time was revealed from the divine depths with me to be nothing but an illusion. In the divine spectrum a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years like like day.
Time is not really real. And we can chose to be it's slave or rise above it.
OUR INDIVIDUAL STORIES matter. We have got to cease comparing ourselves to others and to stop allowing others to compare us. This is foolishness. How do you compare stars or the sun and the moon?
This comes only when we have journeyed inwards and discovered the very fountain of life within ourselves and there learnt to love ourselves so completely that nothing without us can ever shake us again. We stop accepting the false stories others want to feed us with about our lives .
Love teaches us to TRANSCEND All external definitions and categories and all bondages and discover the very source within ourselves. Then true soul freedom comes.
When we have let go of these physical attachments we define ourselves by which, when they fall apart, we crumble. What false stories are we claiming and believing about our lives?
The true story is the one that begins and ends with Love ~ the very essence of who we are.
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@stargreen