Hey, how's it going my Hive friends? Just felt like posting a little view into my recent day to day life.
I've spent the past couple of days sleeping quite a bit. I slept till 2pm yesterday, and 4pm today. I have not been feeling good whatsoever, I am losing all my muscle mass, gaining tons of weight, dry mouth, frequent urination, chronic fatigue, and lots of headaches, stuffy nose, and earaches. Also have not had any libido in a couple of months, which is abnormal for someone 23.
Mentally I have felt fine, just very tired. but physically I am hit. Seems I have a lot of symptoms of low testosterone, and diabetes. I do have a lot of experience with Webmd health scares when I was younger, so I'm not getting bent out of shape over it, but I hope it is nothing serious. I have an appointment with my doctor on Thursday of this week.
Besides the whole health scare thing, I watched: How to Hitchhike Across America: Thumbs Up on Youtube and have been researching train-hopping, and the culture behind it, Folk Punk music, Gutter Punks, and all the subcultures. There is a ton of interesting information on the whole train hopping scene, it is pretty amazing. A common thing said to newcomers is that you have to go out yourself to figure out the way the trains run, and the best routes because seasoned train hoppers do not share that information with just anyone due to how much work they have to put in themselves, it is like a treasure to them.
I've put in nearly 20 applications, followed up with a few people who were interested before I got the last job, they said they would call me back soon(just like last time). I'm not gonna get stressed out over the job hunt, I'm putting in all the effort I can, and as soon as it comes, it comes. I found a pretty cool quote that is relevant to the situation: You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf. -Jon Kabat-Zinn
The main thing is I don't want to have to feel like I need to have control over every situation. Some of my family members have extreme control issues, which really just influenced me to be the opposite.
I am excited for new opportunities in the future, and I have been getting a much closer relationship with my mother and father. I am loving sobriety and the clarity that comes with it.
I wake up most mornings by lighting up a cigarette, downing a cup of coffee, taking my medicine, and watching medical stories on youtube(Link) while my suboxone dissolves under my tongue. Once I'm all ready to get my day going, I eat some food real quick and jump on Peakd catching up, voting, commenting, and replying. I do my Rising Star Game tasks, and then check up on my email for job opportunity replies. Usually, I turn on some jazz to listen to while I get my day in motion. My favorite part of the day is calling my mom and dad in the morning and catching up with both of them.
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