Lately, I find myself playing Lichess tournaments from time to time, especially when I take a break from work on my system. It can be refreshing, but for me, it gets me pissed off because I have been playing poorly all through. I played Daily Blitz Arena to see if I could gain some rating, but I gained some beating instead. The pieces look strange to me, and I found it hard to coordinate my pieces throughout the game.
I won a couple of games, but it was against lower-rated players; it was like a lucky win, I did not play well, and my opponent could not punish my blunders in the game. Honestly, a part of me is glad that Hive-related chess tournaments are off for now, because my chess is super rusty at the moment. When I joined, I was number 551 on the standings, and by the time I ran away from the tournament after a couple of beating I was in number 131.
I just could not take the beating anymore. It is funny to me that chess is the only game in the list of games I play that gets me angry whenever I am losing. I do not know why. It would be any other game, and I would not care less.
This has to be the most painful game out of them all. Imagine having a +4.5 advantage in the game, and the next thing you lose just because of a one-move blunder. Everything was all fine in my favour until I went for the worst move of all, f3, which gives up the entire position and advantage to a checkmate tactic for black. What came next, with a heavy blow, was bishop sac on d4 with a check, and that is all, game over for me because I cannot stop the checkmate that comes next with Qxg2. After the blunder, the scream at my workstation was loud; I would not be surprised if people could hear.
For this position, it is hilarious what I played next. The position was already bad for me to play, and I went on to make it even worse. I look for all the possible moves, only to settle with queen captures c3, being completely oblivious of the fact that c3 is well defended by the white queen. From there on, there was nothing else I could play to give me a draw, let alone a win. Losing was the fate of this game. It is interesting to know that when you make a blunder, that is when you realize that lower-rated players can play strong chess.
I will still play more Lichess tournaments another time, for now, I am quite pissed at what I am playing.
