I take pain medication on most days. I am not addicted to pain medication because I keep a careful watch on how it makes me feel. If I find when I take one pill and I don't feel the effects like I should, I stop taking it for a few days.
If I can go a few days without pain medication then why take it at all? Good question.
When I first became sick (yes, I am lumping all of it under just sick) the Doctor I was seeing did not believe in pain medication. To be able to get out of bed and feel somewhat human, I started playing video games.
Some games were more design games as seen below.
Other games were more World of Warcraft and similar type games.
I will never forget the first game I ever played and played and played.
Farm Town.
No, not FarmVille but Farm Town.
Farm Town was a game that never slept. It was the first game I played where you could interact with people from all over the world. I loved it. I would get hired to harvest their crops and in turn, would get a portion of the crops and money from picking the crops.
When I first started playing Farm Town it was more of a social game than anything. Everyone only had one farm. That one farm only had so many squares of crops to harvest. Most people would hire more than one person to help harvest. Some people split the crops even and others not so much.
The cool thing was you could live chat with people and my first question was always, "Where are you from?"
Even back then I had problems sleeping. I would be awake when the other side of the world was. I was able to meet people from Indonesia, Thailand, England, and so on.
It became a funny joke with friends. They would ask me what countries I had been to that day. Me being me, I told my friends my stories of what countries I visited that day.
Gaming helped me concentrate on something fun to do. It helped put the feeling of extreme pain to the background. It how I survived for years when no Doctor could figure out all that was wrong with me. I owe a lot to gaming.
Many of you know for the last four to five months I have been feeling worse than ever. I know what has been going on yet I have not wanted to face facts. I still don't.
One of the items on my "To-Do list" has been to go get a blood test. It was scheduled six months ago. I never went. I know what it is going to say. Yes, I was being a baby and thinking that if I do not see it in writing it's not real.
A few months ago my Mom came down with a rare blood disease. Finding this out sent me into a bad tailspin. Mom wasn't doing much better.
I canceled my wish, a far fetched one I will admit, to win a trip to SteemFest 3 and booked a flight to Florida where I landed today.
Five days ago I ran out of pain medication. Five days that I HAD to get stuff done so I could be gone from home for 3 weeks. I had my Plain Jane CBD joints but they only help so much. I still have high hopes for CBD, yet right now, they are not the total answer.
Five days. No pain medication because my Doctor on Friday had had enough of my insubordination (his wording). I could not get any more pain medication until I had a blood test done. I found this out on Friday late afternoon. The blood test I needed to take was a 12-hour fasting one.
My plane left for Florida Monday morning at 7:30 AM.
Saturday I woke up and headed over to get blood drawn. It was the last day to be able to get it done before I left the State I live in. Throw in my insurance covering the cost for the test too.
I now needed to wait until Monday morning at 8 AM to call the Doctor. Let him know I took the blood test and needed the medication sent to Florida. All fine and dandy but I would be in the AIR flying on a plane at 8 AM.
So how did I get all the stuff I needed to get done if I was in so much pain? I played a freaking lot of Gods Unchained.
I would play long enough that the pain would become less. Runoff and look for new glasses at a store. Come home and play Gods Unchained again. This was the last 4 days before today. I had laundry, cleaning, packing and maybe a tiny bit of feeling very sorry for myself to do.
You don't believe I played that much? I have proof. It is nothing to be proud of if you just look at the stats for the weekend wins and loses yet those stats me so much more to me.
Those stats meant that the laundry was finished. Bags where packed. Electronics with all the freaking cords packed. Clothes laid out. Plane tickets checked in 24 hours before the flight and I talked to my husband too. 😻
What it also shows is how much pain I was in. Even with losing 87 games I still kept playing. It was the only way anything was going to get done.
Here I will thank my husband for helping me out too. He saw how the pain etched its way into my face deeper and deeper each day. I didn't have ANY relief from the pain for five full days.
I played Gods Unchained for the only relief I found in 5 long days.
If not for a video game I never would have been able to do the small amount that I did.
Six phone calls to Doctors and Pharmacies I was finally told the pain medication was ready to be picked up. I drove Mom's car to the pharmacy. Finally bag in hand I went back out into the parking lot to go home to get some relief for the pain.
and.......
I could not find where I parked her car. 😹
I walked up and down a Walmart parking lot for over 15 minutes looking for her car. Her white car. I could not take the pain meds because I had to get myself and the car home.
I finally broke down and called my Mom. She asked me where I was. I told her I lost her car in the parking lot. That everyone has a white car in Florida. She then told me that her car wasn't white it was silver. I found the car in the next 30 seconds and drove home.
There is not a moral to this story unless you can find one. 🙀
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Help someone smile today. It can not hurt you.
Love,
Snook
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